[half hedgehog]

There are 144 unpublished drafts in this diary: some of them are just unfinished, some- far too personal, some aren't actual anymore. Also, I have 17 unreplied messages, unfinished chapters of thesis, a gap in questionary; what is more, my CV sucks and I must complete it in a couple of days.

Since December I'm trying to be easy-going, light and positive. I'm trying to live everyday with a clear thought that this day would never repeat. Sometimes it works.

Actually, tomorrow is a big day- tomorrow the lab will let us know about our future. It is like a highway and we are heading forward and in a kilometer we will see how far from destination are we.

All this thoughts are like in echo in the mind, a siren from a horror movie, one of those that are utterly annoying and creepy: KEEEEEEP GOOOOOING, KEEEEEEP GOOOOING, KEEEEEP...

I keep saying to everyone who asks me what am I gonna do after graduation/in 2 years/with my life in general: I do not make any plans anymore. I can try to pretend that I have some, but no hopes and fears; it does not mean live unorganized I bought the week-planer and fill in with the small notes- "University", "thesis", "wake up earlier", "sport". I'm trying to add some structure and order to this mess inside and outside, but I fail. The only battles I am able to win are the battles with myself- not less hard, but possible battles.

I keep driving on a highway and I don't know, how far am I now.




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Comments

[Россэ]

You are so great, you know that?)

[Россэ]

You are so great, you know that?)

[half hedgehog]

Россэ, no way, my dear Thank you, you are magnificent By the way, just give me a sign if you have any free time after this thursday- it would be awesome to see you)

[дрессировщица крокодилов]

So have they told you anything meaningful about your future?
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